One Day, Many Thoughts

At this point in the game, with the competition one day away, I am feeling much more than the predicted excitement.  Nervousness, anticipation, and anxiety are becoming intertwined with the excitement.  This has left me with a balled up, mangled mess of aggressive feelings that I can’t wait to throw at the next piece of chicken I see.

I exaggerate.  It really hasn’t been all that bad.  But questions run through my mind constantly.  Has my work paid off?  Am I as toned as I should be?  Or worse yet, will the other contestants even know I’m competing?!

I consider these thoughts, and then let them pass instantly.  Because when it comes down to it, I know that the answer to these questions is yes, yes, and who cares. I’ve come this far on my own terms.  I never gave up, and I’ve learned SO much in the process. 

In fact, I feel I have learned more than you will be willing to read about in one short blog.  So I’ll try to keep my thoughts to a minimum today. 

1)      Food is a healing power.  It can do your body good, or it can do it much damage.  You have the power to fuel your body, and there are proper ways to go about doing that.  Limiting or eliminating certain foods is NOT always the way to go. 

2)      Most importantly, I have learned that ANYBODY can do ANYTHING if they put their mind to it.  I was the “nice, chubby girl” in school.  No lie.  I was voted ‘friendliest’ for my senior year book, and while that’s not a bad thing by any means, it sort of made me feel like I was the person who would do good things, live an average life, make lots of friends, and just….well, be. 

I can ‘be’.  But I can ‘be’ my best and do and accomplish things that I even thought were impossible.  I will ‘be’ the friendly girl, but I will be the friendly, fit, accomplished, driven, AND capable girl that, through her experiences, will help others see that they, too, can do more than they deem possible.